Community

Lately my heart has felt full. I cannot tell you the last time that my heart has felt this full.

Living in Japan it is hard to find a community of believers to lift you up and encourage you.

Thankfully I have a few girls here that encourage me.

But I have discovered a new sense of community…

blogging.

People that I have never met face to face  just by reading their blogs or reading their tweets, I am encouraged and I know that I am here in Japan for a reason.

I am still trying to figure out what the exact reason why I am here. Is it to get a kick start on my teaching career? Learn to live in a place with no community and have to find it else where? To tell my Japanese friends about Christ? To tell my students about Christ?

Personally, I know that it is a little of all of the above but I think that the one reason why God has me here is to try to find Him in the midst of the darkness of Japan.

And this has been my toughest challenge.

Why do I feel this way?

I went to Texas to see one of my most favorite people and spend time with her family. It was probably one of the best adventures that I have had in a long time.

But lately, I have been feeling like I have a void in my heart. This was all answered today during Sunday School.

I feel like no one loves me, which I know is not true. I feel like I am going no where in my walk with Jesus. I feel like I have no friends, even though I have 8 of the bestest friends that a girl could ask for. I sometimes feel like I will never find that ‘certain someone’ to spend the rest of my life with and be able to enjoy life with.

Well today… I found out why I have been feeling this way.

I have been disobedient to Christ.

Matthew 28:19 says… “Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.”

Have I told someone no anyone about Christ lately? How Christ loves them? How Christ wants them to spend eternity with Him? If I haven’t then I am sinning and I am being disobedient to Christ. I am disobeying Christ in my silence. I need to ask Christ to forgive me of this sin.

Philemon 1:6 “I pray that you may be active in sharing your faith, so that you will have a full understanding of every good thing we have in faith.”

So this week… I am going to be proactive and share my faith with someone.

God does not ask me to be good at something, He asks me to be obedient. And if I really think about it, What is my life look like on a time line of eternity? It is not even a speck of dust on the floor.

Something to think about….

Little things

Today at church, I was reminded that no matter where I am or what I am doing, someone is looking up to me.

We were reading out of Philippians 4 and how we need to trust God at all times.

I was reminded of how God works and how amazing He is. I thought about how God uses people to bless me. How He uses Alece’s blog to bless me and encourage me even though we have never met. She is such an amazing woman of God and if I could be as half as strong as she is, I think that I would be doing pretty good.

I don’t think that Alece ever thought that she would be blessing a 22 year old, that she has never met, every day.

I just wanted to say Thanks Alece for all of your words of encouragement! They really do mean a lot to me!