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29 Oct

The other night my friend Christina and I went out for sushi. I have found my new sushi soul mate since my dear Maegan went back to America.

Christina and I could eat sushi probably 5 times a week if you let us. When we go to sit down, we immediately look at what is going by and just start taking plates off of the conveyor belt. Then, we realize that we have 5 plates each in front of us and that we should get to eating. This happens almost every.single.time. What can I say? We LOVE sushi.

Anyway… while we were nommin on some raw fish, I started talking about the desires of my heart. Telling her how I want to get married. How I want to become a mother. Then in my head I was thinking of all of the other desires of my heart. How I want to see my Japanese friends come to know Christ. How I want to see my family turn towards the Lord and love Him with every ounce of their heart.

I then asked her: Do you think that the Lord puts desires in our hearts if they aren’t meant to be made true? How I want to be married and be a mother. What if I die before it happens? Would the Lord give me those desires?

I know that I can die at any moment. I know it sounds morbid, but it is true. Every second, I am closer to going to heaven. Closer to seeing Jesus on His throne. Closer to seeing those streets of gold.

What do you think? Do you think that the Lord would put desires in our heart if they weren’t meant to be accomplished?



20 Sep

While I was in America at my parents house, I found some very important documents.

My letters to my future husband.

I have been writing him letters since August 19, 2002. I was 15 years old and a sophomore in high school.

In these letters I tell him how much I love him, that I am praying for him and how I cannot wait to meet him.

I tell him about the ups and downs of being a teenager. To having my heart-broken… many times. To how I have grown in Christ.

The other day I was sitting here reading some of those letters. I was thinking, hmm…. what will I do when I meet him and give them to him on our wedding day? I feel like I cannot just stop writing letters. Will I write letters to my children one day?

To me, I feel like writing letters is such a great way to express your love to someone.

I mean.. God used people to write the Bible for us. That is one of the greatest love letters ever written. How his son would die for us because he LOVED us.

What is a way that you show someone  you love them?


28 Sep

“We are getting a new assistant today.”

This is what is told to me when I walk into work yesterday. My school isn’t the greatest at informing me of things. They really like to “surprise” you.

Our new japanese assistant came in and she met all of us and was working with us. She has a very common Japanese name so we gave her the American name of Mia. She thought that this would be a lovely name.

We were asking her about her family and you know all of that little chit chat that you do when you are trying to figure someone out. Well one of my coworkers asked her if she was married and she said “No, I’m divorced.”

I don’t know why but this took me by surprise. I was shocked to say the least. I think out of all of my time here in Japan she is the first person that I have met who is divorced.

Here in Japan, the divorce rate is 27% compared to America where it is 50%.

I think what shocked me the most was that I just expect everyone here to either be 1. single or 2. married. I think that as an American, hearing that someone is divorced, it doesn’t hurt my heart any more. I have become callused. BUT hearing that someone is GETTING a divorce, that still hurts my heart major.

Maybe I have been in Japan for too long. A country of politeness, perfection, and marriage.

Future Husband

26 Aug

Today I wrote my future husband a letter for the first time in 4 months. I cannot believe that it has been that long.

Some of you may think, what they heck are you doing?

Well ever since I was 15, I have been writing letters to my future husband. I just write them to tell him that I was thinking about him or events that have been going on in my life. I like to update him about things.

Whenever he gets to read these, he will laugh at most of them I’m sure. I know that I would laugh andd I would also laugh at how often my handwriting changes.

I love that man so much and I cannot wait for the day that I am able to give him all of these letters, 4 notebooks full that is.

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